Not having control takes me into my inner child and back to what childhood represents for me within my story.
So one can say I grew up having to live with it and learning to cope or better endure it. One would also expect to become used to this feeling, of not having a choice or knowing what to expect next. In many ways I have. I have grown to become quite controlling in my own life, very able, self capable, independent, etc. And above all, I had to find something to give that control to and have trust in it. When you feel you not in control or can control as the little child or the adult human, there is only one way. And that way is to trust that someone/something has that control, is in control! And we have to also learn to trust that all that ever happens is simply another piece of the puzzle (life) we have no full view of. The big truth is we never that in control, ever! We just think we are! We might have a bit of control on very closed things to us, but not much else...
2020 has been one the most challenging years for the human race because exactly that: All that was certain to us was taken away. The illusion of control was lost! The truth reality came alight and it is scary! Nothing is certain! Nothing is forever, permanent, constant or reliable. And life is extremely fragile!
In 2019 I heard many talking about 2020 being the year of 20 x 20 vision! They were not wrong! It has been indeed the year where veils have fallen down, the true colours of our leaders have been shown! Never fake-news became so relevant to the reality of the life we live, so desperately sticking blame. We saw the impact of the pollution on cities being lifted in the lockdowns, the animals moving more freely. We got angry over the unfair treatment of a fellow human, just because of his race and we reflected and got better informed over the big picture behind it all... We concluded we can indeed work from home successfully, and bosses wondered of the need for all the expensive offices... New ways got to be found with adapting doing so many things. Shop owners got creative, business got creative. People came together, communities came together. Some governments with good leaders shone as some others failed... People got united and then got tired and frustrated... We got to see the real mess! We got to consider what is really important in our lives. The heath, the family, the friends, the support networks we need to have. We got to value so many simple things taken for granted before. Local small business got more support, etc...
This year has given us all, mostly a chance to reconsider our lives, careers, passions and what truly matters. The excuse of not having time was discarded, no longer able to be applied. The inverse came to be normal, as we all isolated at home for months... We had time to reflect, rethink, reconsider, organise, clear, clean, create... We also got time to be caught out in the mess of fake news and fake creation, opinions and misinformation that has created more issues than solutions. That is ironic, as all they claim to be is the truth! The way to open your eyes, be awaken, stand for our unique selves and autonomy and against been manipulated, controlled and followers of a system.
Interestingly 2020 adds to a 4 and here I am adding a couple of meanings easily found online:
"In Numerology number 4 is a conscientious number with a focus on long-term security. In Numerology number 4 is a number of focus - a focus on building a secure foundation for the future. (...) It can be a lot of work. 4 is adequately equipped for the work with its ability to focus on the details of the steps required to reach specific goals." https://affinitynumerology.com/number-meanings/number-4-meaning.php#maincontentcontinue
"First, we have to say that 4 is the number of justice and stability that you need to keep in your life. This number also resonates with loyalty, patience, wisdom and trust... number 4 may also symbolize your aspirations and passions that you have. Number 4 can be a symbol of honesty and loyalty as well." https://angelnumber.org/what-does-the-number-4-mean-in-the-bible/
Meaning: this card is suggestive od stability and secure life. You are on top of things and everything is under your control. It is your hard work, discipline and self-control that have bought you this far. It means that you are in charge of your life now setting up your own rules and boundaries.
Upright card - keywords: Authority, Father figure, law and order, leadership, power, promotion.
Reverse card - keywords: Control freak, Immaturity, Lack of discipline, Loss of authority, Manipulative friends
Don't you think is interesting that we indeed have experienced all these themes?
'a focus on building a secure foundation for the future' Never a year has given us so much time and opportunities to see all the cracks and neglects of our society! 2020 might not be a year of solutions but is definitely the year of questions and reconsideration. We indeed need to start building a secure foundation for our future! This year is a bit like the tower in the tarot, the collapse of beliefs, structures, etc.
'4 is the number of justice and stability that you need to keep in your life. This number also resonates with loyalty, patience, wisdom and trust... number 4 may also symbolize your aspirations and passions that you have. Number 4 can be a symbol of honesty and loyalty as well' I love this! Fighting for justice and stability! Yes, we are no way near a society with this as priority! All the rest also makes sense, the need for loyalty that has been missed, patience, wisdom and trust that has been missing being inspired by our governments. Aspirations and passions that we need to reconnect, reinvent or create will be essential!
Now we can also look at the tarot card of the Emperor and also see so much resonating but even more for some of us, what we been experiencing is the not the Emperor in its full glory but his shadow self, the hidden side of power: ' Control freak, Immaturity, Lack of discipline, Loss of authority, Manipulative friends' Doesn't this resonate with the reality so many of us are living with our governments and the importance of real directions to follow, instead of misleading advise and confused headlines, plus all the truths going on behind closed doors... with favouritism; misleading; lying; incompetence, etc
Fascinating I would say!
But now let's go back to Control! And the title of this blog... When one doesn't feel in control, one feels powerless! A big reminder of this is when one is faced with death for example. And this year I have lost a few... when one gets ill and is not in your hands being able to help or cure is as extremely difficult experience to handle. When someone is unwell mentally and there is not enough support in society is devastating... When we lost jobs for no fault of our own; when there is no money for the next bill or meal that is seriously scary! But I beg you to accept not having control, but not feeling powerless! Here is where trust and faith come in! No, don't sit on the sofa feeling sorry for yourself and depressed!! Go and ask for help! No human is that alone! We are not a desert islands in the middle of a big ocean, there is always someone! Something possible! We have to try finding help, a solution. And then we have to trust a solution will appear and most times it will. Ask! Look...
Faith is the biggest holder when we not in control! Faith that something bigger then us that is also part of us is there to support us. That it is powerful and so all is possible, we are part of it so we are also powerful!
Trust that all this is a unique opportunity for humanity to heal and change, and remember it starts with you! Your healing, your change. You and me taking responsibility and working on ourselves, our values, our dreams, aspirations. You and I can make a difference and if we get enough of us doing the same. Be the example, don't wait for change but instead be the change.
Oh yes if there wasn't enough 4's already here, apparently, on the 10th January, we had a full moon eclipse in Cancer and today a full moon again in Cancer - Full circle! Cancer that is a number 4 as it rules the 4th house in Astrology., and had the moon as its ruling planet. A zodiac that stands for home and family ... (you can find more on Cancer here: https://www.allure.com/story/cancer-zodiac-sign-personality-traits
To a great 2021! That, by the way, is a 5... "... in the Mayas number 5 has been considered the symbol of perfection. Also, it is believed that number 5 is a symbol of grace, that is associated with the human body: we have 2 legs, 2 arms and 1 head... " https://angelnumbersmeaning.com/angel-number-5-meaning-and-symbolism/
In the Tarot card 5, it is the Pope: " The Hierophant is seen seated on a throne between two pillars symbolising law and liberty or obedience and disobedience. He wears a triple crown, and the keys to Heaven are at his feet.
Meaning: Hierophant stands for tradition and convention. It can represent marriage in an arranged setup. It can also mean a teacher or counsellor who will help in learning/education of the querent.
Upright card (keywords): Education, learning, marriage, religion, seeking counsel or advise, spiritual guidance, tradition.
Reverse card (keywords): Abuse of position, breakdown, poor counsel, rejection of family values.
Definitely some food for thought into this new year, and what to expect... Remember you also have the power to create
your own reality based on where your attention lies!
Thank you for reading! Let's make 2021 an interesting, more positive, loving and united year for all of us.
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