Wednesday 19 September 2012

Spirit release, the need not to fear...

 
This summer I read a book on psychic attacks: Spirit Release by Sue Allen, that I found very interesting as I grew up with these kinds of things. Meaning my family used to see a medium who contacted the spirits and who would help people with all sorts of illnesses and problems that were coming from the spirit to the physical.


It was amazing and in a way, I think it built my own interest in this kind of thing. 
Plus being exposed to this kind of displays - and believe me, they could be quite theatrical 😉 even though the lady was very grounded and direct to everyone - made me not scared! Yes, the fear I realise is the door for this kind of things...  So the big answer is not to be scared, no matter what. 

As a child, I remember being amused and wondering how did she do that? She would say to someone something like: 'why are you even here? You don't even love him! Are you sure you want to help him? Or is it simply all because of what your mother thinks?'  the person would go white by the shock of the truth and the embarrassment of this being shared in a room full of strangers. But it worked. 

Next, she would be saying: '...no wonder the doctors can't find anything... Do you know of a car accident where some John died?'   after some pause... 'oh yes it must be my husband's friend from work... He died 3 months ago...' 

'yes, yes he is with your husband, the headache he has is from this person, that is how he died in the car, he can't leave your husband because... Ok, you need to....' 

Mostly this would be candles to diverse saints and listening to a number of masses (normally 33). I grew up in a Catholic country! All this for this spirit to get the help he needed and be taken to the light. It always worked!

Other times she would describe the person who had done some black magic to you and give you a horrible tea to drink at home, that made you throw up things no one would ever believe... I am lucky I was never asked to do that myself, but I saw some of my family members taking it, and what came out was more the kind of thing you might see in films! The one I remember well is my aunt throwing up two eyes that looked like they came from the biggest fish ever, and trust me she had not eaten fish! Especially not the eyes! 

Anyway, this book definitely made me go back there, to my childhood and how this woman has affected me and inspired me into the spirit side of life. 

I don't do what she did, but I have had some experiences of mediumship myself and dealing with 'negative' identities and I know that it was seeing her that made me not be scared of these things. She would allow spirits to talk through her and pass messages to people. I always saw it as a play, but then my father died and he came to her and spoke! I was 16 and that was it, I was a believer! This was real! Oops! 

Anyway, I read this book, not really sure for what, except that maybe one of my fantasies is one day be exorcising spirits! Hehe But as I was on holiday and had just finished reading it, I met someone who out of nowhere started talking about her worries and fears that we all can be psychically attacked! 

She had come across some spiritual group where the leader didn't stop talking about these things and how we are all vulnerable, etc. 
And then a friend of hers - when his father died - had seen these evil things come and get him. His dad was not even a believer... So now she is scared! And not sure why this man didn't get help in the spirit world.

I was quite taken by the fact that this person was talking about these things to me, and that there are people out there scaring others with these things. So not just religion uses fear to manipulate you but some silly new age gurus are doing the same! 

Why are human beings always so desperate first to have power and control and secondly to be right! To believe what we do or have is better than what the others do or have! Aargh! This makes me so frustrated!  I hear this with religion, healing ways, and with everyday things like what car, or what brand of jeans or shoes to wear.

As you can imagine I spent some time explaining and reassuring this girl that she has no reason to have fear. Yes, all that is possible - but at the end of the day what we have to think and take care of is number one: us. 

So by looking after ourselves, staying positive, grounded, protected and mostly trust and have no fear, we should be ok. 

We can ask for guidance and help at any time and if we become more and more conscious of ourselves we will become aware of our body, psychically and spiritually, and so we will know when something that is not ours comes closer.

When this happens, love and understanding will dilute it. Darkness needs understanding and love - it needs to be seen, but not given any special attention or value. It is what it is. Nothing more and nothing less. If you're love and light, it will not stay.  

I hope this article reassures some of you that it is not necessary truth that the world is becoming a scarier place to be! The truth is that we are seeing it like this because of the media we are exposed to! The world is better than ever in many ways! Of course, in others, it is lacking one big thing we have been missing: RESPONSIBILITY! We all need to take more responsibility in the way we live and act because at the end of the day we cannot change anything or anyone except ourselves. And therefore it is us we need to take care and change. That might be in the physical or the spiritual level. 

We need to open up our intuition, trust, open up our hearts and become more conscious of our bodies and souls, of our thoughts and actions. Only then can we let go of the need to control and the fear of the unknown. 

Love to you all. xxx 

Monday 17 September 2012

My Summer Journey...

When so much is going on inside you sometimes words become hard to be expressed...
That is kind of where I think I have been for months.
Decisions! Need to follow what I know I need to do. Change!
But before any of that was possible to be started I wanted to go on holiday!
Summer was here but instead, the rain became our daily bread and I founded my self being more and more unhappy and desperate...

Money was not materialising, stress was taking over... And I so needed to go away! See this sun that I was not able to see in this country. Oh, this was weeks and weeks of darkness, wetness and inner trouble... I knew as I always know that all would work out in the end... But the in-between was fear, anxiety, worry... Even my heart started playing silly palpitations on me.

But as with everything, 'all will pass' and it did. We end up going away to that so deserved two weeks holiday... 😀 Sun! Finally!

Ok, now we back and I am so happy that the Sun has come with us and is here 😁 I feel so blessed and energised... This is perfection for me. Not too hot, not too cold, blue skies and still not too short the days. It makes us feel like doing things and being so much happier.

I came back having decided that was now time for changing!
For months this has been playing in my mind, I even talked about this here:  *Fragmentes of a Soul: Full Circle - more self-exploration...
First for some time my heart was closing about my part-time job. Telling me it was time to leave.
Sad as for so many years I felt and knew I meant to be there. It was important for them and for me. But now I started becoming tired and realising what somehow I have been avoiding - that I can do so much more!

For starters I need to stop just volunteering as a Counsellor and finally after all these years say to myself: I can and deserve to be paid! I can do this job! I really can!
Having come to a natural end with some of my clients, and especially closing a big piece of work with
a very long term client that has been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, made me realise how
much I have done. 
I decided to do this closing report as a case study and I went on a journey myself with it. I believe it moved something in me. I felt that something was coming to a closer and something was about to
open up. New beginnings. 

But being myself I felt I needed an extra push because really I know, but I am always scared and unsure, and I am very good at avoiding. So after we came back I decided to get help from Elizabeth Peru from http://www.deltawaves.com.au/ . I have come across her same time ago and all she talks and does resonate with me, so I decided to order her Life purpose CD. Where she would offer guidance and practical suggestions to help me fulfil it.

After doing this I realised a local shop was asking for help and thought that could be a good idea for a part-time job income, so it would give me space to carry on building my clients and do other things... like my healing! 
So I went home and started redoing CV and doing a nice introduction letter, and then I got in touch with my manager and arranged a meeting for discussing my future in my placement. 
And so I did, the following week I had my meeting where I told that I was ready to start being paid! Of course, this is not going to be overnight because due to government cuts we have so many fewer referrals but it is a start and that is all it matters :) I am finally on the road! I mean I been on the road all along, just I was browsing and now I am walking, focus on where I want to go.

I then took the CV to shop and hoped to hear from them... Who knows?... Possibly they prefer a 20 something girl but at least I act on it and tried it.
Then the MP3 arrived (instead of CD to save time on posting) and wow... It moved something in me... I felt I was hearing myself! Nothing new, but all that I know and needed to hear, plus very good tips and a few things that made so much sense...

The big Lesson: practice! I need to do with my healing gift what I had to do with my counselling, practice, practice, practice until my 'personality' believes I can do it and I can even be paid for it.
So now I am in the next step: needing to practice my healing... and I trust doors are opening... I am offering absent healing on my Facebook page and asking feedback!
Yes, that is very important because I need to hear what is happening, how people are feeling, how things are shifting and moving.
I can not promise an outcome and of course, I want everyone to use common sense about seeing Doctors and not taking any of what I do or say as the only truth. We all have our own truth and so we have to hear ourselves. Does that make sense to me? If not, then is not for you. But do keep an open mind and pay attention, just because you can't see it yet does not mean is not there!

And I also give my notices to my part-time job, difficult but I had to do it. I could not have kept it from them my feeling or thoughts. No rush, plenty of time... by the end of the year I will leave. 

So I am now open for ideas so I can practice more my Healing gift, for free at the moment...
That is now my intention! On top of that, I need New Counselling clients that are able to pay, so it starts covering my place expenses and I can make some money too...

This is my journey so far... thanks for reading it 😊 Love and light to all! xxx