This week I had a big realisation over something that has bothered me for a long, long time. Is quite amazing how things happen when we less expect it.
As I face the fact that as we all, I will get older I have realised this is something I have big issues with and that it troubles me immensely. I talk about this on my first article here...
Don't take me wrong, I am not talking of looks - ok I have been blessed so far with good genes except for my almost full white head, so I know is simple and normal that the body changes as we get older. Of course, I wish to stay healthy and fit, at least moving 😃 but I know things will change and there is not much one can do about that, except of course looking after ourselves the best way we can with what we eating, etc.
My issue is simple: my fear is about becoming vulnerable, dependent and more than anything incapable of making and taking decisions! I do not want to become a child again. A big baby with nappies, completely dependent on the care of others, vulnerable to abuse.
So for that reason, I am a big believer in being in control of our own death. I believe we human deserve the same treatment as animals have. If he is suffering and there is not much one can do we put him asleep! Simple dignify and the most wonderful, powerful thing we can ever do! So how come we treat animals better than ourselves? Why do we force life to be prolonged? With machines and drugs that all it does is keeping us alive in a vegetive sense that for me is simple inhumane!
(I left far too long to finish this exploration of my thoughts but here I am going to try to end it with what I end up finding then)
Being conscious about who we are and where we come from and belong to can be the answer to letting go of this fear and anxiety!
A baby is in peace with himself, his soul knows who he is, there might be resistances of accepting their own choice of coming back here in some cases but most are content and not at all conscious of needing to understand the what's and the whys of what is going on around him. His needs are basic and primitive: nourishment! This is the only physical need, he is still possibly much more aware and intouch of what he (the soul) really is. He chose to have a physical body and experience so he accepts that and lets go of his need for a soul experience.
So the answer here is to create an opposite experience as we get old. We need to let go of our need for the physical experience and accept the true reality that we are a soul, a spirit.
So as we get old the more we will be in touch with our spiritual life and being, the more conscious we are about who we are as a person and as a soul the more we will be living a more detached life from the physical side of things. This will help with the acceptance of the physical reality we might have to experience then.
Maybe when we get to be really ill or not totally there mentally that does not mean that we are unhappy inside, maybe that just means we are living more and more in the other side of conscious. Maybe we not here mentally because we are up there already enjoying our freedom as a soul.
This would help with letting go of our need of being in control and again if we live a more compassionate, conscious life we could ask and trust others to know our wishes and take care of it for us. Just like a baby trust that if the mother loves him he will be looked after and loved. 😊
