Death and Living...

27th April

I came across a few things about this in the last few days and I thought: 'umm quite an interesting subject I should try to write about it' so here I am... Let's see what comes...

I like the idea that only by knowing about death can we live. www.internationalmovietrailerfestival.com/all-trailers/death-makes-life-possible/

'Death Makes Life Possible' explores the taboo topic of death and asks the fundamental question: How can understanding death give meaning to our lives?'

I believe that too, for only when we live fully do we accept death. By living fully I mean living conscious, present and aware of what is. If you are scared of death, you hide, you protect yourself, you avoid living because you scared of dying.

How many of us spend their lives doing exactly that, at least at some point of our life? Yes, I can see all those arms out... 😊 and I can see the ones who are not out because they scared of admitting exactly that to the world and to themselves. For that is one of the big issues in so many things in life and our inner world. We have issues with admitting things to ourselves! We ashamed of accepting that we anything else than 'good'.

The other issue to me in all this is that the fear of death can kill us anyway and how sad is that? To live a life where you are not living, where you are vegetating or living like one of those zombies from a horror film. But I see this in so many people, on tv, on the streets and in my practice. We stop living because we are scared! And sometimes it is not at all that we are scared of death - no, in fact, some of us at some point even welcomed it - it is that we are scared of living! Because living has became unbearable and therefore if we don't die for real we still kill ourselves and live a dead life, with no meaning, no purpose... Sad, lonely and depressive.

Do I have the answers? No I don't! But I have in fact some beliefs in all of this and one is the need for a purpose or at least the belief that there is one somewhere and you just need to find it! And the other is that we need to find our lost soul!

By lost soul I mean our real self, the one we lost touch since we have been bombarded with neglect, abuse, false believes and expectations plus our false interpretations of all this reality! We are all unique and we all have unique ways to interpret and react to the reality! That is what makes us, us - and not someone else. So if we choose consciously or not to react or act in a certain way to something done to us we need to take responsibility and accept it so you then can let go of it, the guilty or the anger that is keeping you stuck in time.

We get trapped in our traumas, fears and emotions and only when we get to know them, accept them and work with them do we start commenting with our real self. We need to know, really know ourselves and accept it for what it is! That acceptance needs to come from a place of unconditional love, the place that is within us, our hearts, our souls, our consciousness, what connects us all.

And by purpose, I mean a reason, a passion, a love for something. We all need to feel needed and valued, respected and accepted, loved! And we don't just need it but we have a right to it too. But what we don't need is to look for any of this anywhere... yes, I know, surprise, surprise! We need to only and simply look and find it all this within ourselves first! Then yes we can look into getting it somewhere else... And believe me, it will come!

The more you find it within you the more it will materialise in front of you! Because all will be mirroring yourself! That is all, so simple. If we are in pain we mirror pain in others and in the world, if we are in anger we project and mirror anger in others, if you are in love you project, attract and see love everywhere because all is mirroring what you are! We are connected! Gosh, this is so, so good!

So yes when you are in peace within and open the answers will come, the purpose will come to you. Sometimes it might just come in disguise so you have to give it a chance! Believe your heart, follow your instinct, trust your inner voice, your sixth sense, whatever you want to call it but go for it, because you don't know what you will find. Ok, let me explain that not always what is your purpose or what is right for you at that moment in time is a easy choice but what it will definitely be is an opportunity to grow! And that is why we are here :)

So let's not die, let's live and connect and forgive and express and love and be! X

WOW I just bought this beauty :) and I am so excited !  Thank you Universe ! How cool is that? All the way from Australia - Adelaide... hehe
So if I can't go to Adelaide (at least not now) Adelaide is coming to me!
*see my post on 'Healing Karma in Adelaide...'

So funny how these things manifest... the last couple nights I been feeling the need to sleep with a crystal and as I use them in my Healing/Meditation group I tend to keep them in the 'meeting bag' and they don't come out and go back to my altar... so this week I felt deprived. The few left are not so special so in a moment of despair I just grabbed one of crystal necklace and slept with in under my pillow.
Yesterday again, as I was putting together the altar in the meeting I was looking at my collection and realising I am in need of a good size crystal ! Something with weight and soul... Something that would be drawn to me and felt special.
 

This morning I come across this beauty for sale at a reduce price from Adelaide hills and I got the last one that in fact was the cheapest and the one I was drown to. I have to admit I hesitated a bit over the price but I was told: 'follow your heart' (by my partner not a special force lol) and so I did!
Can't wait to have it in my hands... x

Day and night... trauma and freedom

In the last few years, I have become more of a thinker than ever before, more like a philosopher who keeps exploring ideas in my mind... and luckily I am blessed by having a partner who bounces back some of those ideas and I find these moments one of the most precious moments of our present life 😉

Questions over the self or some deep spiritual connection that I just made tends to be accompanied by goosebumps in my body, this is always a good sign to me 😀 it says I hit something important and deep.

Today I had one of those moments but in a therapy session...
Day and night! The need for us all to realise that all is like day and night.
I was talking about having tools to cope with the down moments that life will bring. Those dark and depressive moments that we all visited time to time and I said that it is important first to know that 'all will pass'!

I heard that in a mindfulness retreat, the story of a teacher whose student came to him and said: 'I don't know what to do... I try so hard but I am not getting there... I feel so down...' and the teacher said: 'all will pass' days went by and the student came back and said: 'wow today I really feel good and I understand... I feel really enlighten'  and the teacher said: 'all will pass'. Yes, that is one of the biggest realities that we all need to know. Nothing will ever be the same and all will pass because we are always changing. Everything changes by itself even without us wanting or knowing.

The second is 'stay with it' don't fight it. Don't avoid it or ignore it. But at the same time don't give it too much time and attention. Do face it, express it and explore it, do whatever you can do but then that is it. If you overdo it with attention and importance you only losing precious energy. So if it is painful, dark simply look at it, face it as it is for what it is and stay with it knowing that it will go.
For it always will. After the storm, the sun comes out because he was always there! After the dark night goes, the bright day comes! Simple!

Now think of this: when the night comes do you worry about the morning coming? Do you question it? - No! You don't! The night comes, you go to bed, sleep and in no time is morning!
But if you do, if you fight the fact that is night you will not be able to sleep and then time will not go... and it will feel like forever to get to the morning... so let's not fight those dark days/moments in our lives and they will go quicker then we can imagine it... 😁 x

Healing Karma in Adelaide...

22nd April 

This morning I came across this article and it resonated with some inner truth:

"Dear ADELAIDE people (& anyone interested in Atlantis) I used to write for Inner self Magazine & by far the most FEEDBACK I ever had about one of my articles was for THE CRYSTAL CITY, which I wrote all about the Adelaide/Atlantis connection & why so many INTERNATIONAL people are drawn to this city, to heal their KARMA. If you haven't read the article or seen my other website, have a little look x http://thecrystalcity.net/about.html"

I liked the idea of healing karma :) I always felt that I am one of those old souls that came to this life to do a lot of karma work. My life circumstances and young history told me that it must be a reason for me to be here!

I remember at age 16 deciding to live! Yes, I mean it as instead of dying because yes a part of me was wanting to go, not really be here and the other was like 'that is scary, not so sure...can someone simply notice me?' But no one noticed... or at least not what I expected :) it did not come in a psychical form like a member of the family or a friend but as an invisible force holding my hand, and I do mean 'holding' with strength!

And that was the beginning of me deciding to live and if I was to live, it must be a reason for that. The pain, the rejection, the doubts, the emptiness... all had to have a reason. And so that day in that white kitchen holding a knife I asked this invisible force to allow me to touch people, to make a difference in peoples lives. If I had to live in this life it had to have a good reason and the only one I could imagine was that I would be of help to others. (I can tell you now: I was heard more then I expected or wished for and 10 years later I was overwhelmed by the gift I was given... but that is a story I will share another time) x 

So back to this article: When I look back my life I realise how I meet people and they stay for a time and then they go... how there is always a meaning and I tend to realise that sometimes as soon as I met them. There is a positive side to this, the knowing that there is a reason for this friendship or relationship but there is a sad side too, the knowing it will end and pass. I believe they are all karmic relationships, the exchange of something within my soul family.

In this article, it talks about Adelaide and its healing properties and how so many people have this desire to go there and how the place brings out the darker inner shadow and makes us face the ego. All my life I have been attracted to Australia, of all the lovely places I would like to visit in the world that has always been on top of them all.
My question has been 'why' what is it? And the truth is I don't really know. I was very surprised when my brother said he feels that too, that he feel some kind of connection with people he has met through the years from there.

So now after I read this I am wondering if this is a calling for me to go and do some spiritual healing within myself. Maybe to confront my shadow face on. I sense there is a lot of spiritual people up there, most 'new age' (if we really can call it anymore as is not new any more lol) people pages I came across Facebook are all Australian, like the one from the article. So maybe is something there.
Today I told my family I will be looking seriously into this! Thinking of it bring a longing in my heart... I hope I will have the courage to follow it :) x

Photo: Crystal Quarry, Adelaide - found here 

https://www.pinterest.com.au/pin/757238124825393211/

Thank you!

Ok this morning I got all my courage and after a few days just writing things here I decided it was time to tell people... I got my first official comment and by this evening I realise I had been visited 39 times ! You guys have no idea how exciting this makes me feel !! Wow Thank you so much for visiting, and do feel free to comment ! Love and light to you all. :) x

Gosh what a week...

20th April 

Gosh what a week has been... apparently all this sun explosions and of course the earth shifting... people are talking about feeling tense and with so much going on... I for starters feel I started the year on a high. This year is a year of beginnings! New things are happening and they happening fast! Things are really shifting and healing is happening! And one thing that is touching me is that more and more young people are waking up for this, younger and younger... time is going fast to all of us! Where do you remember thinking that as a child? Now we hear our children saying: 'wow mum is weekend again the week went so fast or gosh just the other day it was Christmas!' Yes, we all feeling it and I have read it that it is because of our physical body is trying to adapt with the "pole shift" of the earth. Because we are energy and energy is affected by magnetic fields. I thought that was a very interesting explanation. :)

If anyone is interested I find her very knowledgeable!  
"OK, so it's a gravitational Earth shift underway. Another way of saying "pole shift" perhaps. Just way too much upside down energy flying around, hence why the animals are all onto it before us, they don't have reasoning blocking their instinct. Doesn't feel anything disastrous though, more an elevated excitement in the atmosphere of what is to come, which I feel is unknown on a soul level at present. Be very ALERT to your own energy, stay in your centre & be aware where you place your intent over the next few days. More on this to come x" Elizabeth Peru © Deltawaves 2012

Invisible act of Power-Caroline Myss

19th April

I have been reading a book by my favourite spiritual author: Caroline Myss - Invisible act of power. As always another good book... And I think I will be writing about things I have read in it... So first one: "People in the middle years, especially, seek out meaning. Carl Jung described maturity as an awakening to the need to live a life of spiritual purpose rather than simply fulfilling the basic needs of physical survival or pursuing pleasure. He saw each person as the hero of his or her own life's journey who sets out on a path to greater spiritual awareness." 

Ok so is this what middle life crisis is? At many levels, I believe it is! Most of us live life and create a comfortable life for us and our family because we feel this is what is expected of us! By our family- parents and society. To grow up with inbred expectations and beliefs. Some were real and some were only our interpretation of them. And this is a big point in human beings life! We choose what to feel or believe something means! Mostly unconsciously but never the less we do need to take responsibly of this one day! 

Have you question about how two siblings have so different ideas of their parents' ways of discipline, for example? How the same trauma experienced by a group of people have so different consequences in them. The way they reacted at the time or how it affected them afterwards? That is because we all unique and we experience things differently! So the same action, let's say: 'you can never do anything!' by a parent can make the child feel insecure, unloved, unwanted and a failure who will grow up to be always a nobody with low self-esteem and feeling like he can never do anything well enough and therefore he is a waste of space. Ok, I am pushing here but I want to make a point :) 

The brother was told exactly the same thing and became angry, and rebellious and hated his parents and went on pretending he didn't care... He made a life for himself and carry on, today he still doesn't talk to his parents and in fact, even though he has a good job and even a family he is never happy and has become a bully just like he was in school. 

But there is another brother! This one didn't get angry or allowed himself to be a nobody, he is the pride of his parents but he doesn't know it! He carried on life doing always his very, very best! The best at school, the best husband, the best son, the best father now... He does everything so well, with so much care... Waiting and waiting for his parents' approval, but even though deep inside they are proud they never thought of telling him! Why should they? He is a grown man with a fantastic job, sure he doesn't need mum to say ' well done! I am so proud of you! ' But guess what he does! They all do! We all do.

Until one day they stop pretending, they have a crisis. Their body will be saying: stop pretending! Stop doing all this for someone else! Stop thinking those things about yourself! Depression comes in, middle life crisis come in... With luck and good help, they all will learn about themselves and why they are like that and they will reconnect with their true selves and begin a new life. A life where they will not need anymore the approval of the parents for they have their own approval. They will be proud of themselves and love themselves for who they are. They will be free! X